Ed playing soccer

I'm unbelievable. I waste minutes of my precious life looking at pictures of Ed Westwick playing soccer.

2009

So... 2009 is now here but it doesn't feel that different.
I could write about 2008 and how it was such an important yeah in my life and what happened during it to make me think that way, but writing all that would hurt a tiny bit (especially during PMS lol).
It's just a little uncomfortable to remember that I was one day in love and now I'm just not anymore...

Not that I'm unhappy now but... "love" is a good "state of mind" and once you fall in love or you get traumatized or you get addicted to it. Or both maybe, like I did.

You get you're heart broken. You learn \o/
You learn that life does have ups and downs. That you do learn with mistakes. Your mistakes, their mistakes...

Now I feel more free than I did back then. I feel that now I'm gonna have to protect me from everything by myself. Which is good because I feel a little bit more mature and now I can actually grow up a little bit more like Tati.

Now I can learn more about me and care about making me happy. Which is harder because I'm never satisfied with who I am. But I should be... because I'm a "great girl". And those aren't my words.

And I'm not going to talk about last year anymore because last year is so... last year lol

Let's think about the present \o/ or the future, which is even better. But that's only my opinion.

I heard Earth's been spinning around faster than usual since 2000. That's probably why time's been flying.

So I'm gonna think about the awesome people I'm gonna meet and the great moments that are coming, the useful things I'm gonna learn, how independent I can be, how less dramatic and... well I just want to be happy this year like I always did on the other ones.

I want good things to happen but if bad things happen that's okay 'cause "i get by with a little help from my friends" and family. And when that bad thing happens I might as well learn from it.

And move on. Like most people do.

I'm posting this pic 'cause I like it.